“how do your words shape your world and that of those around you?”
a recent client query:
“sometimes i am frozen in my fear to speak up for what i believe in; why do i allow myself to feel my emotions or opinions don’t matter?”
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the fear of speaking up - of creating a sense of “resistance” or disruption - can lead to mental, emotional, + eventually physical discomfort; and at what expense?
to hold back for worry that you may be the only one feeling a certain way; to ignore intuitive cues that something isn’t quite right. to platform the peace of others over inner knowing.
in the short term, we teach ourselves to shrink + retract, giving away our sovereignty. in the long term, this behavior repeated can destroy our self-trust.
where can we find clues in our birth charts, or other tools to explore our relationship to communication with compassion; and perhaps to see what our purposeful relationship is to speaking up?
in this client case, her gemini placements point to a destined path of advocacy (and, truly her passion!); to create a safe space not only to speak up + educate others, but to give them a community in which to flourish through their own communication.
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exploration:
“how do your words shape your world and that of those around you?”
client’s PERSONAL PLACEMENTS to consider
what you came with karmic knowledge of:
3rd house south node in sagittarius
sagittarius can often come off as a carefree, easy spirit. in the south node, it suggests past lives as an explorer, a preacher, a guru of sorts; a mastery of expansion without the need for outer validation by others.
because you came into this life with a strong sense of evolution, it can be easy to crave “destination” or what’s next. it’s important to learn to appreciate the journey; and to let the journey shape how you communicate with the world.
this is not a lifetime to let your drive just fulfill a personal desire; it is not education or growth for the sense of self. it is also not a lifetime to fear commitment, or to let the largesse of something unfold organically + in its own time. you don’t always need to be conquering something new. you can learn to explore the levels within the journey as side quests of their own. dig into the details. relish the power of collaboration.
in the third house, sagittarius traits rule over communication, neighborhoods, siblings/cousins, close communities, short journeys, + early education.
what you came to do:
9th house north node in gemini
in the ninth house, the intellectual sign of gemini is in harmony with themes of learning, expansion, travel, + faith. your destiny is rooted in a lifelong pursuit of discovery + expansion through education, both self and formal; your insatiable curiosity aligns with a legacy of growth.
you are meant to gather information, but also to share it with others; to communicate + create community around what you’ve learned. through connection, you can continue to build + expand upon what you know, but also, let your interactions align with your own evolution. as you continue to grow, your missive expands, how + what you share expands, + you are forever in a growth cycle, fulfilling your destiny.
this axis has a unique tie to having conversations that have never been had before; or, feeling unheard.
never stop finding joy in being curious!
part of this destiny includes the challenges of this placement. you may face frustration or restlessness when you feel you’re not evolving “fast” enough. at times, it may be easier to avoid emotion in favor of logic or factual thinking.
north node sabian symbol degree gemini 16:
“a woman activist in an emotional speech dramatizing her cause”
a powerful mind has the ability + the responsibility to sway others into alignment + win them over with their thinking; when this spark of change is an action rooted in positivity, growth, + cultural expansion, there is a sense of true empowerment for both the change agent as well as those who have been changed.
part of the chosen challenge here is not just whether the information in itself is true + factual; it is also in the manner of delivery. what is communicated to those who might not understand the depths of this truth, must also be felt by them. more often than not, the groups attracted will not be familiar with the subject matter; not only will they have to learn it, but will also need to accept, internalize, + eventually also authentically advocate in favor of.
embracing qualities of the feminine is critical in this placement; not courting favor with bravado + fear, but with emotional conviction, imagery, care, + compassion.
sphere of evolution: a lifelong challenge
gene key 39, the tension of transcendence
the sphere of evolution represents a primary life challenge that when addressed, catalyzes a growth + maturation in our self-worth and self-vision. where we can most deeply transmute pain + disbelief by moving past avoidance, + rationalizing that “that’s just not me.” embracing this challenge leads to a higher level of transformation than ever imagined.
you must learn to tap into your own emotions, process, + let them resonate for your greatest good; not let them cause paralysis, strife, or indifference. there is a wound + a gift here in the idea of provocation.
in this placement, the shadow of provocation specifically related to emotions + communication can be a paralyzing force, abruptly cutting off our inner life force + engaging us in a state of flight, fight, or freeze. it is easy to become our own worst enemy, or to immediately criticize or disagree with others when we feel threatened; the transcendence of this placement comes when we learn to approach, internally or externally, with curiosity, joy, + passionate intent. it can also manifest in people-pleasing or taking responsibility for the way others feel, not putting yourself or your mission first.
there is a lifelong mission to stay in surrender + grounded in the present moment without losing hope. immediate results are not real + lasting.
working with the throat chakra
removing a blockage in this area allows for a heart + mind connection, reinforcing that how we feel is important; that we can advocate for our needs without fear of dismissal.
there is a higher risk in staying silent than there is in a potential “no.”
be aware of when you notice tension in your throat, physically. what was happening at that time? what fears can you associate with this reaction? what is a self-soothing technique you can use in the moment to relax, rather than reinforce?
there’s many practices or amulets to explore around an intention of throat chakra release; what might resonate for you?
yoga poses
meditation
affirmations
crystals
herbs
takeaways + potential JOURNALING PROMPTS
after hearing + reading through this, as well as doing any additional research on these placements; what comes up for you?
can you recall any specific times you felt empowered + supported when speaking up for something you believed in? conversely, can you think of any times you felt your voice was actively suppressed?
what is your relationship to the idea of femininity? does it resonate in any specific ways in your mind, positively or negatively?
how comfortable do you feel talking about feelings?
can you challenge yourself for a short period to “over” communicate? what would it feel like to speak up in instances where you don’t feel heard in your personal life, to tell someone how you really feel? to journal on the five “whys?” to make a public comment or social media post sharing information you believe in? can you find ways to regularly speak up for yourself + others in a way that makes you feel more like your most authentic self?
recommended tools for MOVING FORWARD
tarot to work with: queen of swords
in anchoring in the power that comes with speaking her truth, the queen has rightly asserted her place in the world.
there is a sense of conviction + calm, assured, assertiveness that comes with invoking this archetype. no need to prove herself; no need to over-explain or justify. it simply just is.
affirmation
my words change the world for the better;
when I advocate for my feelings, it elicits comfort in others to share their truth.
when I share my knowledge in a larger community, others feel seen.
when I allow myself to grow, I am able to detach from outdated patterns, internal + external, and consistently evolve myself and those around me, aligning in my life’s highest purpose.
